“…He looks at me; I fake a smile so he won't see

That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about

And she's got everything that I have to live without

He talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny

That I can't even see anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,...”

While I was hearing this song, I thought about something. It’s something in my deepest heart. It’s something that I never ever known the answer. I don't know I can't understand what happens on me lately. Sometimes I wake up from my sleeping and my tears pour down. Sometimes I'm scared of everything, my life. I can't decide where foots walk steps by today. There is something in my heart that I can't understand how. How could I know my self doesn't know how? That I know is, I’m afraid to be alone. Everyday I look after the answer to leave out all the rest, but I haven't.